Sometimes mistakes happen with shooting film, especially when trying out a new camera. However sometimes mistakes like this I treasure more than photos that turn out perfectly framed, focused and exposed. Perhaps these images are how I perceive memories. In fragments, cut offs and blank pages.
Sometimes life moves too fast that places and faces become a blur of motion to me. Just like a quick 4th of July trip up to San Francisco. It felt surreal to be back in a city that I spent 5 years of my life in. A city filled with memories that come and go from my mind, freeze framed or on in a loop.
How do I even began to express how heartbroken I am to see the country and people I love and respect so torn apart. The amount of hate, anger and division in our country against each other is something I cannot fathom. Since when did our nation become so vengeful, hateful and egotistical? I pray that our constitution upholds their moral compass and deliver the right action to Donald Trump, his disturbing supporters and the cowardly Republican cabinet members. The attacks on African Americans, Muslims, Jews, immigrants, LGBTQ, minorities and anything other than “white” has become too inhumane. These Trump supporters and rioters have lost all compassion, acception, love and most importantly humanity. Their hate, intolerance, bigotry and ego has pushed them over the line to the point of abandoning all reason—for what cause?? We need to unite together, those of us that still have love and compassion, to protect each other and carry each other through these dark times. We will not be afraid of their hate and we will stand together even stronger through this division. Those that love and accept each other and respect each other’s differences peacefully are the true Americans. May love and light, healing and harmony be restored upon us as individuals and as Americans.
2020 was unreliable, unrealistic and unimaginable. It felt like playing pretend, that everything is fine and all “this” is normal… Everyone was lacking fervor and in a pensive state of mind–aimlessly staring out at nothing until our visions became doubled and blurred. Only to have people wave their hands in front of us to snap us back to “reality”.
At the end of the day, one can’t help but question what is the “silver lining” to all this chaos, division and anger? If all the luxuries of traveling, wine and dine, shopping, etc are stripped away, what is there to “define” us? Who are we if we no longer have all these distractions and personas? How do we truly find fulfillment and motivation in ourselves?
Although I am still navigating through these existential questions I believe the start of living meaningfully and happily going forward is to surrender to the feeling of harmony, gratefulness and love–for ourself and everyone. To live a life not dictated by our Ego, but the compassion in our hearts. Willingly make meaningful connections with others, being open-minded and accepting. Creating new art, technology and businesses with this refreshed vision of unity and respect for each other…and our Earth.